.

2011-08-13T02:40:00.000-07:00

I can't be with someone who has doubts, no matter how small they are. I need someone who wants to be with me as much as I want to be with them.

I don't want just a part of your heart, I want all of it.

2011-08-01T09:50:00.000-07:00

I'm done with your lies and stuff,

Happy Fasting.

I'm moving on...

p.s and oh yar, just so you know, you just proved me right, girls should just fuck off and die..

Adele - Set Fire To The Rain (Live On The Graham Norton Show) 29/04/11

2011-07-29T04:37:00.000-07:00

You and Me Together Nothing is better

2011-07-28T09:19:00.001-07:00

can I know what goes thru your mind when you Hear my name..?

2011-07-08T18:05:00.000-07:00

Who needs a girl,when you can live your life the way you want it.

I've seen everything, and I personally don't believe in love, commitment and relationship.

2011-06-19T06:42:00.001-07:00

meet bell

2011-06-16T21:07:00.000-07:00

20 things girls should never do to guys

1)Play him: guys have emotions too. and girls can be just as big of players as guys.

2)Not pay attention: guys try to be tough. i’m not going to lie. but when they’re willing to open up their hearts for you, don’t go off with the “omg i know exactly what you mean blah blah (insert your own personal story)”. it means that you’re important to him.

3)Don’t hook up with other guys that he knows: He’ll get really jealous, even if he doesn’t like you. if you talk to him regularly, don’t do anything you’ll regret. he’ll regret it too.

4)Deny his kindness: If he wants to hold doors open for you, pay for you, even carry you when your feet hurt, don’t tell him no. If he likes you, he’ll do so many things for you if you just let him.

5)Deny your beauty: Don’t call yourself ugly in front of him, whether it be because you want a compliment or you actually believe it. if he says you’re beautiful, believe it. That’s how you are to him. and if you want a compliment, all you have to do is hug him, or look at him in the eyes, and you shall get your tales of self beauty from him.

6)Let him go: When you find a guy you like, don’t let him go. if he seems like he’s worth it to you, go for it. chances are you’ll have the time of your life with him, even if it doesn’t last forever.

7)Vent to him and not expect him to like you: Don’t open your hearts, cry to him, run to him for support, or vent to him in any way if you don’t want him to like you. it’ll happen.

8)Don’t treat him like other guys: He’s not a typical guy if he treats you like a princess.

9)Tell him to stay away from the people he loves: Yes, he might be friends with other girls, but if they’re his best friend since he was little, don’t tell him to leave her.

10)Make him stop old habits: If he did drugs before, accept it. it’s not cool for you to change him.

11)Don’t treat him differently in person than through messaging: Don’t go around texting him like you’re in love and he’s your bff, and when you see him in person you say hi once, and leave. it’s fucked up and it confuses him.

12)Don’t not accept his compliments: It’s kinda repeated, but when you say “ew, no i’m ugly”, it makes him feel like he’s doing a bad job at caring for you. trust me.

13)DON’T BE AFRAID TO KISS HIM FIRST: IF YOU FEEL THE FUCKING MOMENT IS RIGHT, KISS HIM. HE MIGHT BE TOO NERVOUS. FUCK.

14)Don’t be afraid to let him “do you” lol: If a guy wants to “eat you out” don’t say no, most of the time he wants to pleasure you without receiving anything in return.

15)Don’t point out his flaws either: If you say “oh look, you have some fat here!” or, “it sucks that you don’t have definition on your arms” it’ll fucking haunt him forever.

16) Don’t make it a contest to see who loves each other more: He doesn’t want to lose, but if he wins he feels like an ass. lose-lose either way, so don’t do it.

17)Don’t act like he’s a robot: He’s human, he cries, he screams, he can feel physical and emotional pain, he has limits and he can only control so much. don’t push him.

18)Go on adventures with him: He’ll protect you as much as he can, so don’t worry to wander off, it usually ends up being the time of your life.

19) DRUGS: Drugs can do so much, yet so little. depending on who you are and who you’re with drugs can add a little bit of edge. there’s nothing like going to an alternate reality and exploring with your lover.

20) EVERY GUY MASTURBATES. DON’T JUDGE HIM: Every guy does it, at some point, no matter who they are, they will reach a moment in their lives where they do it on a daily basis, and they won’t care where. so don’t make fun of him.

2011-06-11T08:04:00.000-07:00

I will shoot you 9 times if i could,

Just in case like cats, you have 9 lives.

I'm done with trying to do what I can to have you,

If you really want me then do something,

show me, Right Now..Here,

then maybe I'll believe you.

if its true whatever you told me before.

You know who I'm referring to.

YOU..yes you the girl who stole my heart.

2011-05-22T07:17:00.000-07:00

AFTER YOU LADIES !

2011-04-15T03:21:00.000-07:00

And so, Thou shall not date girls any younger and thyself,

girls are fools,nothing by mere tools for fondling

p.s give a girl a gun, ask her to pull the trigger with them as the target.

2011-04-12T08:38:00.000-07:00

I want to sleep with you,

I don't mean to have sex,

I mean sleep.Together

Under my Blankets,In my bed

With my hands on your chest

And your arms around me

With the windows cracked

So it's chilly and we have to cuddle closer

No talking

Just sleepy,blissfully happy, Silence

2011-03-30T05:59:00.000-07:00

after a bad relationship.

after a hard days of work.

after things don't go your way.

2011-03-23T03:20:00.000-07:00

I think about you every night before i go to sleep. i imagine you're here with me. with one arm around me and your legs touching me. then you kiss my neck and we fall asleep like that. it helps me sleep.

2011-03-21T22:18:00.000-07:00

I wanted so badly to lie down next to her on the couch to wrap my arms around her and sleep, not fuck, like in those movies, not even have sex, just sleep together, in the most sense of the phrase. but i lacked the courage and she had a boyfriend and i was gawky and she was gorgeous and i was hopelessly boring and she was endlessly fascinating. so i walk back to my room and collapsed on the bottom bunk, thinking that if people were rain, i was drizzle and she was hurricane.

2011-03-20T06:16:00.000-07:00

2011-02-13T04:51:00.000-08:00

I got nothing but love for you

2011-02-04T07:41:00.000-08:00

i wish that we could talk all night side by side,

waking up with you by my side.

no one and nothing else matters.

just me and you.

2011-02-03T08:25:00.000-08:00

fuck n.s man.

fuck everything that ever happened to me.

at this point of time,at night i feel so miserable

all i that i've wanted never happened.

regrets after regrets that i have.

everyone doing what they like but me,im here stuck

in this DAMN place so far away from my love ones,

doing something that i don't like doing with fucked up people

around me what could be more worst in this fucking fuck up 2 years of my

my life.

i know that its pointless to have regrets in life,

but you know what it already happened and IM REGRETTING IT.

i am not that son that a father can be proud of.

i am also not a nephew that my aunts can be proud of.

not even a boyfriend that a girl can be proud of.

having too much of fun and getting a little too big for my shoes,

are what causes all this consequences.

i need time.i need a chance. who in the world can give me that.

im so sick of being and feeling so small.

i need to redeem myself in whatever ways that i can.

i want to be that son a father can be proud of.

a guy that a girl would be proud of.

i need to clear my head and focus.go for what i want.

and make use of every chance that i have to get what i want.

i want it and i want it badly.noones gonna stop me.

2011-02-03T05:22:00.000-08:00

je t'aime

2011-01-29T22:31:00.001-08:00

imy.

2010-12-25T23:53:00.000-08:00

I don't want to be shy
Can't stand it anymore
I just want to say 'Hi'
To the one I love
Cherry blossom girl

I feel sick all day long
From not being with you
I just want to go out
Ever night for a while
Cherry blossom girl

Tell me why can't it be true

cherry blossom girl,

2010-10-27T23:03:00.000-07:00

and again it's not my problem.

2010-10-13T03:35:00.000-07:00

I dont give a damn about what life is throwing at me right now

6 Xtras

YOU

and life who has been a prime son of a bitch.

2010-10-12T02:19:00.000-07:00

i hate good boys and girls and people.

2010-10-07T09:12:00.000-07:00

Erasing you from my life is easier than working things out.

2010-09-10T23:18:00.000-07:00

Selamat Hari Raya Everyone

Love Tom,

2010-08-23T06:59:00.001-07:00

its been awfully long since i've come here to express myself.

life have not really gone easy on me.

neither have you.

2010-02-07T02:11:00.000-08:00

Sweet Disposition

Never Too Soon,

Oh, Reckless Abandon

Like No One's Watching You,

A moment

A love

A dream

Aloud

A kiss

A cry

Our rights

Our wrongs

A moment

A love

A dream

Aloud

So Stay There

I'll Be Coming Over,

And While Our Blood's Still Young

It's So Young, It Runs

And Won't Stop Till It's Over

Won't Stop To Surrender

Songs Of Desperations

I Played Them For You

A moment

A love

A dream

Aloud

A kiss

A cry

Our rights

Our wrongs

A moment

A love

A dream

Aloud

So Stay There

I'll Be Coming Over,

And While Our Blood's Still Young

It's So Young, It Runs

And Won't Stop Till It's Over

Won't Stop To Surrender

2010-01-17T00:21:00.000-08:00

a turning tide,

lovers at a great divide.

why do you laugh

when i know that you're hurt inside.

and why do you say,

it's just another day,

nothing in my way

i don't want to go,

i don't want to stay,

so there is nothing left to say.

and why do you lie,

when you want to die

when your hurt inside,

dont know why you lie for anyway.

2009-12-09T11:50:00.000-08:00

2009-12-07T12:16:00.000-08:00

i know im trying,

i love the way you make me smile.

we'll go to new york if we can in awhile.

2009-12-06T10:22:00.000-08:00

way down,by the stream,

how sweet it'll be once more

just to dream in the moonlight

my honey i know

if at dawn,

that you will be gone..

but tonight you belong to me.

just a little old me.

2009-12-05T01:09:00.000-08:00

dirimu yang tak mungkin mencintai aku..

2009-12-05T01:05:00.000-08:00

2009-12-03T10:12:00.000-08:00

2009-12-03T06:57:00.000-08:00

let's have a summer camp,

2009-12-02T23:12:00.000-08:00

2009-12-01T12:29:00.000-08:00

let's pretend that it's not hurting to be alone.

2009-12-01T10:46:00.001-08:00

im greatly annoyed by the fact that nowadays i can hardly get an early night sleep.

2009-12-01T04:35:00.000-08:00

People in love get fast and foolish
People in love get everything wrong
People in love get scared and stupid
People in love get everything wrong

At least they're not lonely

Baby
I think I'm going crazy
Why should I be sane without you

You tell me to fight it
You can bloody well just try it.
I'll never be the same without you

People in love get special treatment
People in love get everything wrong
People in love their hearts get eaten
People in love get everything wrong

At least they're not lonely..

2009-11-24T11:36:00.000-08:00

it's already 3.38 am

and im still awake.

i asked myself what issit that is still keeping me awake.

well.

im not gona post it up here.

cause it's my own little secret.

somebody just seriously take a gun and shoot me down.

smiling,chuckling,daydreaming is all that i've been doing lately.

seriously.

i just cant help myself from ___________________________________________

______________________________,_________________________________

_______,_______,_______,_________________________________________

________________________so please.

2009-11-20T05:52:00.000-08:00

yea.

500 days of summer.

watched it yesterday,after much persuasion.

conclusion,

it just shows how fucked up a girl can be.

seriously.

2009-10-19T05:21:00.000-07:00

so many fishes,
but i only want you, the jelly fish.
the one thats cold,the one that stings me

2009-10-13T12:58:00.000-07:00

Theres This Sticky Note Behind My Back... it reads..
Girls Sucks.

2009-09-17T12:12:00.001-07:00

it's that boy again, Geminiphobia: The fear of twins (esp. fucked up ones).

2009-09-15T17:06:00.000-07:00

Sometimes you just have to hold your head up high,

blink away the tears and say,

fuck that bitch sia, i hope she dies.

^__^V

2009-09-14T23:09:00.000-07:00

Have you ever been in love?
Horrible isn't it?

It makes you so vulnerable?
It opens your chest and it opens up your heart?
and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up.

You build up all these defenses,
you build up a whole suit of armor,
so that nothing can hurt you,

then one stupid person,

no different from any other stupid person,
wanders into your stupid life...

You give them a piece of you.
They didn't ask for it.
They did something dumb one day,
like kiss you or smile at you,
and then your life isn't your own anymore.

Love takes hostages.
It gets inside you
It eats you out and leaves you crying in the dark,

so simple a phrase like
maybe we should be just friends
turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart

It hurts.
Not just in the imagination.
Not just in the mind.
It's a soul-hurt,
a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.

I hate love. o__O _I_

2009-09-04T10:15:00.000-07:00

well.its a day for new beginings,
and i have to admit after yesterday,
i feel much better today.
sometimes its just best if you fuck the shithole ur in and move on,
then to further prolong it.

now i know,time DO heal all wounds.
or maybe its because im really sick of it.

hah!

like FINALLY.

oke.
life's pretty much the same.
im attending a party this wednesday
in a fucking suit.( $600 suit )

yea im fucking proud of it.
cause i so owned it.

and yes,
whats a party without a show stopper..
im going along with one of the girls from NPF ( New Paper Face )

^^,

life is great when you come to think of it again.
im saving for my bangkok trip at the end of the year.
im up to lots of things.
driving,starting with my motorbike prac.
saving ~
buying my dream machine.

i guess im not really into a relationship right now.
not in a hurry.
i got lot to do.

life is easy when your single with money.
hahaha.

moving on.

Lasalle
super over rated.
thats like so Two Years ago.( two thousand and late )
i would understand people just entering..

hooo haaa so jakundey.
nothing special lah eh.

chey,a lasalle drop out talking. haha.
wtf.

its my life.
i live it.
you envy it.

toodles.

2009-09-02T12:22:00.001-07:00

You are fucking annoying.
Like seriously.

Can we just move on.
I don't wanna be your friend.

Girls are annoying, irritating and over-reacting.

Sheesh...

2009-08-29T00:10:00.001-07:00

I tremble,
you're gonna eat me alive..

if i stumble
you're gonna eat me alive..

can you hear my heart beating like a hammer.
help i'm alive,
my heart keeps beating like a hammer.

hard to be soft,
tough to be tender.

2009-08-23T04:12:00.000-07:00

will be back ..

2009-07-20T18:06:00.000-07:00

life is fair to some,
life is unfair to many..
love is a wonderful feeling to feel,
but love also leaves many brokened hearts unhealed.

i got my answer for that question that you are not able to answer.

and as much that my mind is accepting you leaving,
this heart is begining to stop beating.

i'll pick up the pieces
that was broken by you,
to just stop loving someone like you.
leaving me so thrashed and crippled,
nothing and no one can accompany me tonight
but this half-emptied bottle.

you were the best thing that happened to me,
and you are also the one the took away the real me.
trying so hard not to be like him,
but im starting to feel like lutfee..

a man with chivalry i will be,
to move on and just be me.
caused i never did stop loving you fie,
there is nomore us now but just me.

from tonight onwards,
i'll never love anyone
cause its just so stupid
and this lesson is a painful one.

so tonight is dedicated to me,
when morning comes and you will see
for there is no longer a WE in this sad me.

2009-07-16T17:07:00.000-07:00

You're nothing like i thought you could've been. & even now while i hate you, it pains me to say,fuck off if you think i'll be there at the end of the day.

happy for those who are contented with their lives..
those who have lovely girlfriends and perfect boyfriends,
those who are starting a new relationship,
those who are waiting for feelings to be express..

girls should die

X.X

2009-07-13T17:15:00.000-07:00

so its the end now in london,

in a few hours time i'll be on the plane for Switzerland.

its been fun.

this is my first,it wont be my last to London.

Goodbye london, Hello Switzerland for now...

Girls Are Stupid and Confused.Annoying shiets.

2009-07-10T15:01:00.001-07:00

ouh well finally im here.

in LONDON..
and to be honest really, I effin love it !

oke im really exhausted, jet-lagged and i just got back from Oxford Circus and im tired im saying it again im freaking tired.
any pictures update will be in Facebook for now.

nights~

Tuesday,
im off to Basel, Switzerland !

jealous?
i know,
tell me about it.

2009-06-29T11:27:00.000-07:00

one more Fucking Friday and im Off to London Town ~

im freaking excited *pulling hair*

getting GST money tmro !

i fucking hope its transfered by tmro.

i wanna go Shoe Shopping !

urgh ~

im super high,

sugar rush ~

i wanna have all these colours bfore or after my trip !

im fucking in love with these vans authentic lo pro.. ^__^V

and i so need to get the cloth soon so my maid can start with my blazer,

i need a nice patch like this for my so called " college blazer "

oke bye im hungry.

2009-06-17T12:02:00.000-07:00

life so kick me hard in the face right now..

im really counting down the days,

please just come quickly.

urgh.

so for the two fuckers who practically ruined my life,

just remember this bitches,

whatever that goes around,comes around..

maybe not now but i pray hard it'll come soon for both of you.

thanks.

20 more days till i hope that i leave all my problem behind

temporary.

im really gona enjoy myself to the fullest.

and come back ready,set and all geared up for whats coming for me.

so to a better future,and a better life !

this is what happen if you put my friends in a walk in fridge full of Heineken.

hahaha.this is ridiculously hilarious.

(remake of the Heineken Advertisement)

nights.

2009-06-12T11:52:00.000-07:00

so im less then a month away from my trip,

really really glad that everything is finally CONFIRMED..

finally.urgh swear to god i wasnt enjoying the settling of tickets

here and there..

so im leaving on the 9th for london,Heathrow and then 14th to Euro Airport in

Basel,Switzerland from London.

well initially im supposed to be back by the 1st of August,

and because amendments have been made to my tickets,

i'll be back on the 16th of August instead, because my aunt is taking me

to the Porsche Fest in InterLaken..

so things that have been planned so far,

Spending time with Beloved Aunts in Basel.

Going to France with my cousin to Macumba Club Des Club.

And then for the Finale, Driving down to Italy for My cousin Bunjee Jump Attempt..

i of course would not even dare to try,

but im looking forward to visiting the horses in France,

for horse riding sessions again with dear cousins.

its pissing me off that,

im financially really down.

i would love to get for myself a nice 3/4 sleeve coat..

have asked my maid to sew a few nice pants with red pipings at the side for me..

urgh this whole trip is mentally tiring to plan.

things to do, clothes to wear..

what to pack..

hmph..

emotionally it has been like a rollercoaster ride for me.

i really dont wanna talk about it.

cause really i have to agree with haziq.

girls should die..

X.X

im over and done with letting my guards down for girls.

i've fenced my heart against everything.

2009-06-11T12:27:00.000-07:00

somebody,

just take a gun and shoot me.

or perhaps a very sharp knive stab me.

hes dead..

2009-06-09T12:01:00.000-07:00

she came and cut me loose...

and dont worry, because its not you.

i am done with sad songs and memories of you.

2009-06-06T10:11:00.000-07:00

pop the bottles..

Happy BurstDay Nas ~

hahaha..

blame it on al-al-al al-al- alcohol

blame it on the al-al al al-al -alcohol

blame it on the vodka, blame it on the henny

blame it on the blue tap, gotcha feelin' dizzy

blame it on the al-al al-al-al-alcohol

blame it on the al-al al-al-al-alcohol..

what a happening night outisde hisshou..

onece again happy birthday nas !

2009-06-03T11:03:00.000-07:00

a change of heart or address.

2009-06-02T10:10:00.001-07:00

i'll be back..

2009-05-23T22:38:00.000-07:00

shinee - replay

there are just reasons why i always skip that track on my itunes.

always avoiding that song..

refusing to listen or watch it on youtube again..

eventhou i badly want to.

and the reason is you.

like a movie i want to replay, replay, replay.

2009-05-20T09:46:00.000-07:00

today was great!

well not off to a good start at work,

but err,it pretty much end nicely.

err im not sure bout this but yea love you.love today.love my new gun..

chik~ chik~ Bang !

and err, yar

to childish peeps in their own bubble world,

or should i just say bubblegummers..

enjoy your contented lives while its still lasting,

cause afterall in the end,

all good things will sooner or later come to an end,

especially when it comes to you people..

ouh how superficial.

opps...

2009-04-25T22:19:00.000-07:00

i love this coming 3 days.

a day before my birthday.

the day itself.

and a day after my birthday.

the feeling,

crappy to be honest.

haha.

can i have,

a new sperry shoe.(red or blue)

a nice satin pants from Domanchi.

that white and faint pink bermudas from Topman.

hmph.

a new girlfriend?

haha.

and hey friend,

thanks for that really really early advanced birthday wish.

u always never fail to disappoint me.

2009-04-09T09:32:00.000-07:00

here i am,

wishing that time will stop everytime when we meet each other,

but then i guess you wont want that to happen cause you prolly have other plans.

hoping that all those night talks we have on the phone will last till morning just like before,

and then again you will prolly have to put down the phone cause theres someone else waiting on the other line.

waiting every moment that there's gonna be a message asking me how's my day or where am i, or what am i doing,

again, maybe im not that someone who your thinking of.

eagerly waiting for time to come to meet up with you, nervous and having butterflies in the stomach before i meet you just like the very first date,

and then again maybe you just want to meet and get things done and over with so you can meet him at the later end of the day.

silly of me,

i got tired of waiting, wondering if you ever gonna come around, my faith in you is fading,

i dont even know whats coming.

the plot is typical, but its real

i have a piece of you in my pocket,

2009-04-02T10:11:00.000-07:00

Yesterday at 10.45pm,

we lost a very good man in the family,

someone who can never be replaced in our hearts,

he's a hero to many,

including his sons and grandsons,

someone who has been a very good example to all of us.

a role model.

such a simple man with simple needs

someone whose heart is really pure.

you'll always be in our hearts,

your childrens, and grandchildrens.

we'll treasure every single moment spend with you

right to the very end.

Mohd Ali Bin Syed Sultan ( September 1935 - 1st April 2009 )

2009-03-22T07:00:00.000-07:00

so after a long night yesterday,

i woke up early in the morning for GHS.

went around taking photos all the way till 2 plus,

well i must say im really really tired, completely exhausted.

but then at the end of the day im happy,

firstly there are people who appreciate me taking pictures of them

and their families in an event like this.

and secondly..

haha, i get to see you,

it makes me happy.

looking at you from the corner,

it makes my heartbeats really fast...

you'll be my little secret.

and so lifes relatively well for me lately.

well not really that well.

im back home now after disappearing for a week.

yes,

back Home ~

everythings the same,

except for a few slight changes.

well.

im going to London - Switzerland

in July.

havent really confirmed with the dates yet

but im supposed to be there in London Town bfore the 9th of July

so that we can leave for Swiss on the 9th all the way till the 25th of july

and then back in London all the way till the 27th and back here in Singapore

on the 28th of July.

so yea.

really looking forward for this Trip of a Lifetime with my cousin.

so on thursday

went around with hastick and nazrul and his camera,

this is what we did.

you made my day,

and i made your dads day ~

2009-03-15T09:54:00.000-07:00

after midnight i shall kidnap you from the world
and i'll keep you in my room
hush now my love
and hold my hands,

after midnight i shall take you to a place where
noone else should know
hush now my love
and hold my hands

after midnight i shall stay awake
and if you chose to close your eyes now
hush now my love
i watch you sleep,

your are exactly where your supposed to be
and if they come for you they would have to find me,

stay
keep me awake
keep me up please only for today
keep me daze
my love is yours only.

i just wish to be alone for now,

2009-02-22T05:18:00.000-08:00

haha,

thanks for that closure,

it really means alot to me.

to finally know what it really is between the two of you.

heh.

so all this while,

im just there when you need me and you did admit.

sad.

i hope ur reading this fuckface.

your one motherfucker i'll hate for life,

just you watch fuck,

you didnt win the war fuckface.

i dont even know what she sees in you,

must be dumb,

someone who cant even assure you his love for you,

and thats your choice.

well its up to you then.

i washed my hands off you.

you can forget about things happening your way fuck.

fuck the both of you.

i wished you'll fall really hard falling for a fucktard like him,

i guess you really want to feel it yourself,

at the same time not sure what you want.

heh.

whatever.

stpuid girl.

fuckface boy

2009-02-20T08:08:00.000-08:00

Was out with Shahidah after a loooong time,

hahaha.

people change,

and your definitely that someone who changed alot..

haha.

i had fun

and i know you do too..

got a couple of things from Sungei Road,

1 shades for shahidah

and this super really nice leather jacket for 7 Bucks.

im not kidding its really 7 Bucks~

she was very happy about it.

best catch for the day.

after that head down to Haji Lane

while on the way there saw the fuckface..

damn pussy lah the face.

-.-

gross

and then walk around Haji Lane,

saw irfanx.

i was super jealous of his bike !

i swear to god i'll do whatever it takes

for my parents or aunties to get me that bike !

whatever.even if i have to be depressed.

i'll stop at nothing,

hur hur hur..

here's the fucked up bike ~

i swear im gonna get it and i dont care how.

i'll soon own a sick bike like this.It'll be mine..

2009-02-19T08:55:00.001-08:00

im really in the mood for ska nowadays,

Tokyo Ska Paradise

totemo ii des !!

so went to school,

and guess what i got TONS of work to do for school.

and im left with 2 months or lesser?

fuck again and again im in this shithole.

x.x

people out there i think you should really

tell your bestfriends that you love them.

oke im s o random.

check out my moving lights..

cool huh.

*wink*

hahaha.

i got 2 words for you..

FUCK YOU !

2009-02-15T09:35:00.000-08:00

bfore i start,

cole mohr for life !

hahaha.

my idol ~

soo in love with his hairstyle,

and so,

Valentine's Day sucks,

Girls should die..

Couples too..

hahaha.

and i love my Grandmother alot,thats how i spend my day,

with my dearest Grandmother.

so yea.

life's been a bitch to me.

to many shits that needs to be cleared.

two more months of school.

it means

its either i make it or break it.

toasted !

so went to zouk last night with a few of my friends,

i realised something,

there are too many friends who just come and go around me right now,

like seriously alot.

close ones and not close ones i mean i really dont need this people to be around,

so if anyones reading this and feeling it i suggest just back off ?

hahaha.

i mean its obvious right ?

if im talking and laughing with you people

or having a smoke with you of course im appreciating you people.

dont worry you're in the safe list.

what i mean is people whose just there occupying seats,

rather then giving it up to really nice and truthful friends who'll actually

stick with you through thick and thin?

im just fuckin pisst with people who switch circle of friends in a snap,

they suck..

whatever.

anyway

im really disappointed with myself,

really really need to buck up !

aims and goals jsut there

i need to get up and actually make my way there.

so yea

GO !!

2009-02-01T09:46:00.000-08:00

hmph.

im kinda mixed up right now.

people are really complicated i guess,

not all some i mean.

oh gosh ~

we're back to square one.

2009-01-30T02:31:00.000-08:00

theres no one else that i can confide to

other than myself,

slowly going bonkers ~

haha.

i tried telling you,

it seems that the truth really hurts.

something a little bit too much to you,

cause in your eyes,you feel like your doing your very best and it's like

the most that you have done..

let me hold you for the last time,

it's the last chance to feel again

but you broke me, now i can't feel anything.

it tears me up,

i tried to hold on but it hurts too much

i tried to forgive but it's not enough

to make it all okay

you can't feel anything that you heart don't want to feel

i can't tell you something that's not real

truth hurts and

lies worse,

how can i give anymore,

when i love you a little less than before.

2009-01-25T10:41:00.000-08:00

Let's run in the snow naked so that when we come back inside we'll have an excuse to sit under a blanket and drink hot things.

2009-01-23T22:43:00.000-08:00

you were my sun,

you were my earth

but you didn't know all the ways i loved you,no

so you took a chance

and made other plans

but i bet you didn't think that they would come crashing down.

you dont't have to say , what you did,

i already know, i found out from him

now there's just no chance, for you and me, there'll never be

and dont't make it sound as if you sad about it

i know that they say

that somethings are better left unsaid

it wasn't like you only talked to him and you know it

all of these things people told me

keep messing with my head

you should have picked honesty

then you may not have blown it

you told me you loved me

why did you leave me, all alone

now tell me you need me

when you call me on the phone

girl i refuse, you must have me confused

with some other guy

your bridges were burned, and now its your turn

to cry,

cry me a river..

2009-01-22T07:54:00.000-08:00

shots by Jean Baptiste Mondino

works by Helmut Newton

works by Guy Bourdin

currently doing my research on a frecnch fashion photographer.

Guy Bourdin.

did on Jean Baptiste Mondino last year for presentation.

im greatly inspired by these three photographer,

which mondino got his inspiration from also.

Guy Bourdin,

Helmut Newton,

Jean Baptiste Mondino.

their shots just blew me away.

such daring and bold shots.

using women as mediums.

2009-01-17T09:18:00.000-08:00

love,

selfish yet pure.

hmph.what can i say but to feel really lost.

its just not fair and really hurtful.

" If you really love someone,just let it go

And, if it doesn't come back, its never yours " - Hastick

2009-01-15T09:10:00.000-08:00

eh fuck you lah..

kept me waiting,

didnt even tell me whats happening.

fucking waste of time man..

nabey.

2009-01-14T08:30:00.000-08:00

girls should die.

well not all.

2009-01-13T17:40:00.000-08:00

lets just get lost

in our own

little world.

nobody else

just you and me.

2009-01-13T09:53:00.000-08:00

i seriously wonder,

whats gonna happen next?

are there gonna be serious changes?

hmmph..

ouh well..

2009-01-09T12:57:00.000-08:00

i wish i could have that special someone

who will love having breakfast and reading the morning newspaper,

who will love going to picnics with me,

who will love dressing up,

who will enjoy each others presence,

who will enjoy silence at some point of time,

who will accompany me when i have sleepless nights to drink milk and eat cookies,

who will laze around on sunday afternoon with me,

who will truly love me as much as i love her,

someone whose not normal.

we'll enjoy each others company.

2009-01-07T10:06:00.000-08:00

this last thing i need right now,

is you..

2009-01-03T13:11:00.000-08:00

i hurt myself for loving you..

2008-12-31T01:17:00.000-08:00

Dear Boy,

in life, sometimes if you dont let go, there wont be space for new things.

in another words, let go and the new will come..

smile.

goodbye 2008, hello 2009 !

2008-12-26T09:16:00.001-08:00

Dinner at Banquet, Bangsar

why, those who loved me most couldnt move the slightest bit of my heart,

but the one that i love, their heart arent touched by the things i do nor the affection i show

2008-12-23T09:34:00.000-08:00

i'll be off to Bangsar, Kl in a few hours time.

got my x'mast present from Chuanliang.

haha, super love it !

thanks bro.

i so owe you one.

again.

merry x'mas everyone.

2008-12-22T09:45:00.000-08:00

love is like an addiction.

and somehow,

im badly hooked on you.

your my favourite mistake.

2008-12-22T08:44:00.000-08:00

im bored.

feeling dreadful.

is there not even one point that i can disagree with him?

perhaps not.

he answered all my questions.

woohoo..

merry x'mas everyone,

and happy new year.